Friends...
Much change has come my way in the past few months.
Corresponding with everyone individually about this change would be very time demanding and would result in us not communicating at all after a few weeks (past experience), hence the decision to blog. So I have sat down to my little MacBook, turned up a compilation of Jazz tunes by Jamie Cullum and am writing.
The decision to move to the USA continues to prevent me from falling asleep at night. I lie awake and ask myself the same questions I get from friends all day. Answering myself is often a lot tougher than answering my friends. I hope that doesn't mean i'm not being honest with those around me. I would like to think not.
The truth is I know almost nothing for sure. I do know that I live in a great house with five awesome guys. I know that I like the little city of Conway, AR and it's college life, that I am not yet fully a part of. But the bigger questions still remain unanswered. Starbucks or Tropical Smoothie? Volkswagen Golf or Honda Civic? School or music? Blond or brunette? ;) Some questions seem more important than others. Some of the ones I mentioned aren't exactly relevant at this time.
And as I adjust, waves of nostalgia seem to come and go. My home of fifteen years seems distant and so do my old friends. Email and myspace and chats aren't as real as one would like them to be. I love you all on the other side of the puddle a bunch, more than you know for sure. You are the world that I know, and I have not left for good.
Then I pray that God would confirm my being here and He does...but I have to pray for this often.
Much change has come my way in the past few months.
Corresponding with everyone individually about this change would be very time demanding and would result in us not communicating at all after a few weeks (past experience), hence the decision to blog. So I have sat down to my little MacBook, turned up a compilation of Jazz tunes by Jamie Cullum and am writing.
The decision to move to the USA continues to prevent me from falling asleep at night. I lie awake and ask myself the same questions I get from friends all day. Answering myself is often a lot tougher than answering my friends. I hope that doesn't mean i'm not being honest with those around me. I would like to think not.
The truth is I know almost nothing for sure. I do know that I live in a great house with five awesome guys. I know that I like the little city of Conway, AR and it's college life, that I am not yet fully a part of. But the bigger questions still remain unanswered. Starbucks or Tropical Smoothie? Volkswagen Golf or Honda Civic? School or music? Blond or brunette? ;) Some questions seem more important than others. Some of the ones I mentioned aren't exactly relevant at this time.
And as I adjust, waves of nostalgia seem to come and go. My home of fifteen years seems distant and so do my old friends. Email and myspace and chats aren't as real as one would like them to be. I love you all on the other side of the puddle a bunch, more than you know for sure. You are the world that I know, and I have not left for good.
Then I pray that God would confirm my being here and He does...but I have to pray for this often.
8 comments:
nice blog, dawsy...i like it! and i feel ya!
-cor
...and the feelings of uncertainty about the future and moving back the States all come rushing back. You have a lot of friends and a very large family that has gone through a similar process. Personally, I've been pretty excited that Jesus is on this side of the puddle, too.
hmmm... miss you, daws..but pray that you would KNOW that you are supposed to be there ;)
I am absolutely thrilled to have you close by! I almost feel like you've come back from the dead, and to say the least, I am a VERY HAPPY MOM! I also believe it is God's will for you right now. However, if I knew His will for you was in Slovakia or somewhere else on the other side of the world, though it would be hard, I'm convinced I would be thrilled to see you fulfill God's purpose for you. All that to say, I'm glad God has called you back here.
With all my love,
Mom
mily dawsko, som rada, ze si to poslal aj mne. aj ked to je v anglictine, pochopila som:) pekne si to napisal, tak ako len ty vies.. z celeho srdiecka ti prajem, aby si v Amerike nasiel to, co hladas a aby si bol stastny. mas tam vsetko, co je pre teba take dolezite - rodina, priatelia a moznost robit na skole to, co ta bavi.. ale nezabudni, ze aj na Slovensku su ludia, ktori na teba myslia a nikdy nezabudnu.. a ja viem, ze ty nezabudnes. skoro sa vrat! aspon na skok:) chybaju mi nase rozhovory..
ten anonym som bola ja. som sa zabudla podpisat:)
thanks everybody...glad somebody's reading this. :)
prajem ti aby si si plnými dúškami a s radosťou dokázal užívať to čo máš teraz v živote :-)miška
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